You know what - I have just woken up - 4.30PM - Because i needed to have a sleep after going out this morning with Mother ! - Worn me right out - OK - I did not get to sleep until 11;30pm last night - and then Rodney ( Cat ) woke me up because he was worried that everyone had left him - and then i discovered that a certain 10 year old was next to me in bed - ( My ten year old - don't worry - a Mysterious child had not walked into the house - THAT would have freaked me right out ! - Had the Guard Dog been sleeping ?? !! ) Now I wake and
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE PAIN
- I can hardly move - and you know what - i did first - i reached out - Ohhhh ( Pain in whole of left arm due to doing the mowing of the grass - and only using one arm - ohh i don't know why either ! ) but - I looked at my phone !! -
7 Messages - So - I responded the same in each one
This is what I wrote
" JUST WOKE UP - Been out with mum this am - and was exhausted - Now I'm too achy and in pain to even get up - not because of my Head - ( I have a few Brain Tumor issues - Thats for YOUR benefit - not my friends = They already know !! ) but - because
I'M SO BLOODY FAT !!
It's killing me - my arms - my back - my legs - and even my hump is hurting,
But - Do you know what -
THANK CHRIST I'M SO SEXY =
THAT'S WHAT PULLS ME THROUGH ! " ..................... That was the end of the text !!!!
AND I BLOODY MEAN IT !!
Now that is NOT the type of text - in fact - i don't think i have ever sent a text saying anything like that before - telling people i am in pain - but - oh share and share alike !!
Just because my illness has made me put on HUGE AMOUNTS OF WEIGHT -
Does NOT mean i can't be happy with who i am !!!!!!
NO-BODY HAS THE RIGHT TO DISAGREE EITHER !!
Because - Even though I can't lose weight - ( and omg i have tried ) -
IM TOO SEXY FOR MY SKIN - AND THAT'S THAT !
NOT ONE PERSON HAS DISAGREED WITH ME - WELL :
THEY CAN'T DISAGREE WITH THE TRUTH NOW CAN THEY !!!!
If I believe it - then omg - they do too !!
( OK - I haven't shown them the photo of me with Bed Hair and Alice Cooper Eyes because well - that just ruins their illusion ! - I don't want to take that from them, I know - I am so kind and thoughtful )
It really is all about Positivity and Confidence and Motivation !!
I have these three Trait's, just mentioned, in abundance atm -
and i do actually believe in myself and in my Stance on Body Negativity !
STOP WITH ALL THE FAT SHAMING
IT DOES NOT MATTER WHY OR HOW SOMEONE IS FAT
BUT
THERE IS BEAUTY IN EVERYONE
( OK OK - Nearly everyone - because i won't lie - I NEVER do -
SOME people were not blessed in that department - BUT - )
( Please also remember - in MEXICO - This lady may be a goddess )
THEY MAKE UP FOR IT IN HUMOR OR INTELLIGENCE OR CREATIVITY
OMG - YOUR SO LUCKY TO KNOW ME -
I POSSESS NOT ONE BUT ALL OF THESE ...
But - i'm NOT perfect - OHHHH SHUSH - I'M NOT - My Grammar and Spelling are dreadful !!
but - do you know what
WHO BLOODY CARES !! = IS THAT IMPORTANT ? NOPE !
( Most - sorry i feel i have to add that - just to make my blog TRUTHFUL ! )
Fatties ARE and bloody well CAN, BE BEAUTIFUL ............ MEN AND WOMEN
Just be POSITIVE AND WORK ON YOUR STRENGTHS !
It's society that puts a stop to it - AND THAT IS DISGRACEFUL BEHAVIOR
Don't we have enough problems with people UNJUSTIFIABLY HATING
Is it not THAT, which is causing all the Wars and Fights and Violence ??
It's Lack of Education also - I really believe that !
NOT a social 'Lack of Education' - Because I have been Fat Shamed by the very most Intelligent and Socially 'apt' or should that be 'ept' (?) person, to being degraded by the girl, pushing a pram at 12 years old around the local council estate -
All very Stereotypical - and in fact JUDGEMENTAL of me - but - it's true -
it's just I have the Bloody front to say it - where as others, don't !
..... but - Generally - People have no idea !! -
I have Doctors - Who have my medical EVIDENCE as to why i am FAT, well OBESE ....
RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM - and they still ask :
" Have you thought of a Gastric Band ? "
To which I reply ....
" Would that Not be DANGEROUS - Because - I actually - i DON'T overeat " ......... I may add in
" Bloody Moron " here and possibly get to walk out - but - Mum usually stops me - to hear out a response !!
So - Your going to put a Band in my stomach - to make me think that I am not Hungry -
where in fact - I'm not actually hungry A LOT of the time -
I hardly eat ANYTHING as it is - YOU WANT ME TO EAT LESS ??
The reason why I am so UNBELIEVABLY FAT is right in front of you
- Yet - YOU chose to offer me weight loss surgery -
I AM FAT / OBESE BECAUSE MY BODY IS IN FAMINE MODE -
AND EVERYTHING I EAT IS PUT ON AS FAT AND STORED -
THANK GOD I HAVE MY LOOKS TO FALL BACK ON
AND IF FALL BACK I DID - I WOULD BOUNCE BACK BEAUTIFULLY !
- I have no control over this -
BUT I HAVE CONTROL OVER MY THOUGHTS !
I even take Meds DAILY and for the rest of my life - to try to battle the obesity
DOCTORS SIGN THE PRESCRIPTIONS EVERY WEEK !
and in fact now, don't even have milk in Coffee - To see if that helps !!
I can't exercise - and yes that is CAN'T - NOT - WON'T
because - when i do -
MY BRAIN SHUTS DOWN !! - ( Due to Brain Tumor )
YET THEY PERSIST IN SAYING I OVEREAT -
THANK CHRIST I KNOW I AM NOT MAD -
AND THANK CHRIST PEOPLE I KNOW - REALISE THAT I DON'T OVEREAT -
AND I KNOW I DON'T BRING THE SITUATION ON MYSELF
IT'S THERE IN FRONT OF YOU .......... But it's not nice to see whats in front of you at times is it
( have been told by the local Gym that i am no longer able to go there either to swim or do weights because they are not insured for my condition - OK - I get that - so - I DO WHAT I CAN - WHEN I CAN - and even have to photos to prove it - I don't sit at home and do nothing !! = I am always VERY BUSY !! )
So the thing to help - POSITIVITY / MOTIVATION AND BELIEVING IN MYSELF !
OK - YES - I AM FAT ................. I AM OBESE ........................ -
YES - EVERYTHING HURTS AND I AM IN CONSTANT PAIN -
BUT - BRING IT TOO THE HERE AND NOW ..............................
LEAST I KNOW WHATS CAUSING THE ISSUES !!
IT'S BRILLIANT THAT I CAN BE SO UPBEAT AND SYSTEMATIC IN MY APPROACH
I Don't think - well - in a few ..... YEARS ......... It will be different - Because - Na - I can't see it changing - I can't eat any less - Can't operate - so - i'm not going to be able to do much am I !
SO - POSITIVITY PEOPLE = When you CAN - You MUST !!
and you will probably enjoy it !!
I do - I LOVE being outside and doing the garden -
or playing with the dog - or just simply - going out for a coffee.
Stop dwelling on what you can't do - and don't justify yourself for stuff that you do , do !!!
" Yes - I can have this teacake " You don't have to add - because i know darn well - that i wont eat anything else till tonight - It will literally last me till then - i won't be hungry !! = So - BLOODY ENJOY IT !! "
" I can't do * such and such * today because I am in pain .... But - at the next opportunity - IT WILL GET DONE " - and it always does - OK - It may take me much much longer than anyone else - but - I GET THERE - AND FEEL GOOD FOR DOING SO !!
Is weight an issue - OF COURSE IT IS -
BUT with inclination and determination -
ANYTHING CAN BE ACHIEVED !
YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
LOOK IN THE MIRROR
Your Hair, Your Eyes, Your Mouth, Your Neck, Your Chest, blar blar blar !!
THERE MUST BE SOMETHING - NOBODY HATES EVERYTHING ABOUT THEMSELVES
THERE IS SOMETHING
NOW - EMPHASISE IT !!
KEEP LOOKING AT YOURSELF AND THINK THAT YOU ARE RAVISHING !
KEEP SAYING IT - LET IT SINK IN -
BELIEVE IN YOURSELF -
THAT'S THE FIRST STEP !!!
I do apologise for using my CAPITAL LOCK alot of the time here today - but -- I tend to place emphasis on things i am passionate about - and well = The Caps Lock does do this beautifully !

